a friend
a mentor
a comfort
Countless nights breathing
hot breath on my face
warming what remains
of my heart
You have long
soothed
guided
enraged
bridged
This chasm between
man and monster
daddy and demon
what the fuck and
the ledge
I have invited
you often
have fought
you often
fallen by your blow
I break open
once more
smashed
disemboweled
on the floor
Temple on the tile
chest lurching
begging
demanding this
to end
I invite you now
bring it
more
all of it
now send
The weight of my dashed
dreams
crushing me
gutting me
spineless
I wait
reeling
cringing
expecting
the madness
I open the cage
door swings
limp to
impending
destruction
But asleep I fall
strange
no torrent
no rage
no explosion
Dear Darkness
my old friend
empty
toothless
doom
You failed me
didn't come
only teased
only toyed
with my gloom
you bore me
So now
I will use you
play you
watch you
evaporate
I have some time
left to linger
to laugh
to love
to venerate
Someone else
something else
somewhere else
some other god
to revere
She knows not
our demon dance
my chambers
your presence
your cage
She will never hear
never feel
never know
never witness
your rage
She only sees
only feels
only knows
only loves
that I"m still
here
