The Darkness Dying to Die

My dying 
darkness
lies
waits
trying

To let go
to leave
to cease
its
crying

the mind
the soul
the heart
denying

the pain
the darknes
the sorrow
sighing

wishes
for life
unseen
unheard
unknown
unlived

the other side
I know not
could be
has yet
to give

one morsel
one taste
one breath
one beat

no hope
no love
no chance
no feat

now patient
I wait
to stop
this trial

to give
no more
no life
to denial

so slowly
this pace
lingers on
while I 
try

to let
despair
rest

to let
ego
die 
 

I choose to live

Feeling this
feeling
not running
away

still in this
moment
breathing
today

one life
too large
one moment
to live

fears to now
face
meaning to
give

past is now
gone
present to
choose

patterns of
mind
nothing to
lose

break from the
cycle
move
just one step

grateful for 
choices
free from
regret

open before me
to hell with 
the circles

I have my
own future
no reliance on
miracles

the comfort says
don't
you'll fail
you can't

the echoes 
my mantra
past life's
chant

dear friends
see
push
love
relate

feels like all
sit
watch
wonder
and wait

so here in this
moment
I choose
yet again

to fight
to love
to step
to win

Those Eyes...

Had wondered before that moment
how long it would take
now a sudden torrent
alive in its wake

eyes that stop gravity
my whole world now floating
thoughts rendered immobile
face not emoting

instantaneous shock
then all free to feel
your light that pours out
the heart eyes reveal

there you are finally
my lovely surprise 
heart
delighted

body now rushing
your face
eyes and smile
ignited

years in the making
notes
likes
birthday wishes

chance for the taking
smiles
hugs
but no kisses

all that one dreams
of a moment
in time

without warning
appears
no reason
nor rhyme

now there they are
eyes 
that have haunted
my thoughts
my dreams

so bright and alive
these dark
alluring
sun beams

looking up warmly
wide with 
heart
brimming

this moment eternal
the memory
never 
dimming

all I had wished
imagined
now able
to express

what to say
what to share
what to show
or repress

no nerves
no tension
no caution
to forego

all melted away
with those 
unforgettable eyes
and your sweet
"Hello".