Quiet night in my mind

Tranquil skytrain serenade
slow breaths 
escaping chest


empty thoughts
tracing steps
what is best


life is set up
for a purpose
mine
alone


why do i do this
that
when 
where


what have i covered
shied from
run from
resisted


what in me
do i hide
from everyone
from myself


this meticulous life
so controlled
so nuanced
so deliberate


what seems too much
too hard
too close
too far away


what do i want
what do i fear
what


discomfort fleeting
peace remains
serenity beckons
the heart lies
still


no urge to fight
no grip to break
no past to forget
nothing


one simple task
one me to be
one step to take
now


remember this peace
remember this love
remember this quiet
joy

Facing the discomfort...

what is this space
formerly so full
presently so
so
empty

reasons to move
to fight
to stop
to hide

motives to love
to defend
to search
to reside

values so strange
so flacid
so futile
so mine

where do i stand
what is under my feet
what moves me now
why

who am i
why am i
myself
don't
cry

new place
not safe
brave face

questions to ask
answers to find
monumental task

hearing her voice
she says
it is your choice

would have been
her birthday
tearful grin

discomfort felt
inside so quiet
trophies melt

what is this

discomfort
trembling
strangeness

discoveries unseen
strength remains
within this

beautiful
mess